A Better Day

I think I am taking a turn for the better. Although my arm is still not even 20% of what it was, the pain in it and my neck are not as bad. Sharon is on the mend. She is back to her old self. I was suppose to do an MRI, but they would not sedate me. I have had panic attacks, and I felt I should be sedated. When I have a panic attack, I become very aggressive at whatever has caused the attack. I don't want to make the headlines for the destuction of men and machines. So the MRI is forgotten. I was sad to hear Gary Stockton has been down with his back. Maybe Gary and I could share a hospital room. In the Attic will be back very soon. I look forward to that. Hope all is well with everyone. Thanks so much for all the kind comments.

Good and Bad

The good news is I have recently been back in touch with some of my relatives that I have not seen for many many years. By chance on the internet, I happened across my second cousin Robert. He is a lawyer in Austin. His mom Mary lives in the Dallas area. She is more like an Aunt to me. Mary was always a very private person. I guess that is where I get it from. I also got email from Shelley, she is my second cousin. I have never known her, so this is really a treat to see and hear about all these people. They are all from my Dad's side of the family. I have not seen Mary since my first wedding party. The strange coincidence is that I played the song listed in the post below at that party. That party was in 1979, so it has been a while. Shelley sent me some really awesome pics of everybody.
The bad news is Sharon has been sick for over a week. It has slowed her down some, but she is most independent, and will not ask for help. So I give it without her asking when I can. My arm continues to heal and I can play guitar a little bit. Mostly play only the cowboy chords, but it is nice to play again. I have been having trouble with my neck since the accident. Dr. Kweller thinks it is a pinched nerve and will heal. I am now immune to pain meds. They do nothing for pain anymore. Time is my only option now. I am finally sleeping better and that helps a bunch. I am trying hard not to get depressed, but every now and then I do. Sharon is a great inspiration, whether she knows it or not. Glad to have Rachel and Mikey coming back with more In the Attic. Looking forward to them touring this summer. Thanks again for all your kind words and prayers.

Written September 8 1978

Desperate To Stay Young - by Joseph Benfield

Blue Moon cries behind me
Waiting on the warmth of the sun
One of my windows is open
Feels like part of me is gone

Sometimes I take pills I don’t need
Then you tell me Keith Moon is dead and gone
Now all my windows are wide open
Feels like all of me is gone

Easy going Faggot
Creature from the black lagoon
You can push and you’ll get pulled
They promise you the moon

Try so hard to fake it
Stay the same old way
Hide behind the shadows
Be afraid of the gray

She is the innocent virgin
Pride of the upper class
She can straighten up her wings
Its not going to last

Try so hard to make it
From day to day
Hide behind the shadows
Be afraid of today

Old old women
With the iron lung
Can you tell me where is the sparkle
When you’re desperate to stay young

Desperate to stay young
You’re desperate
To stay young
You’re desperate

To stay young
To stay young

Sometimes I take pills I don’t need

5 Things

I was tagged, but I will not tag others. See #1

1. I dislike Chain Emails or Tag Emails.
2. I love fine Bourbons and Cognacs. Sometimes they don't like me. I do not partake.
3. I dislike people who think they are better than everyone. We are all the same in God's Eyes.
4. I adore traditional Mexican Food.
5. I am very picky about the music that I produce. To the extent that some people feel I am a talentless snob.
BONUS
6. Keith Moon is really not my all time role model. Sid Vicious is.
7. I kid way too much.